Thursday, December 12, 2013
So it's time to CELEBRATE~~!
But just as I want to celebrate, I realized that December is going to be a really busy month for me.
I just have so many events lined up.
Oh well. C'est la vie~~~!
I really do hope that I attend the events and also still have time to improve my driving skills.
Because if I am not able to drive properly by the end of this year, I will be absolutely livid.
Anyhow, TIME TO BE MERRY AND FESTIVE AS CHRISTMAS IS AROUND THE CORNER~~~!
Friday, December 6, 2013
I know that I should have studied during November instead of writing. But I had to do it. I had to write in November.
I had to dedicate the month of November to my story, plot and characters.
Well, day after day, month after month, I am busy with school or my social life or something. You just put everything else first, telling yourself that writing can wait. Writing can be done later because you are busy now. But the thing is, time passes, and you are still busy. Busy with school and life. So busy that I have no time for writing.
And someone who loves writing, that pisses me off. The writer part in me gets mad and dies a little. I keep putting writing off.
So, in November, for once, I want my story to come first. I wanted writing to come first. A month just to dedicate everything to it.
To let the writing part in me to come out and express itself.
To let my characters and plots grow.
To just write.
Everything else can wait.
So, I have no regrets.
Yes, I might screw up next week exam but you know what, I am alright with that.
There is always a next exam.
But for stories, it doesn't work that way.
Anyhow, I really am trying to balance my life so that there is writing, social life and school.
It's not easy but I'm trying.
This is my life and I want to live it.
Saturday, November 30, 2013
I just finished my first novel which is World's Apart. FINALLY.
After years and years of creating it and finally, writing it down.
I feel so proud and happy. But at the same time, I feel sad because I miss it already.
NaNoWriMo really helped to push me so that I could finish it. So right now, I am thankful for the existence of NaNoWriMo. Without NaNoWriMo, I would have never even started writing my novel. So yea.
But I am really glad that I could finish it. Atleast, in this lifetime, I managed to write a novel. So if I die, there is one thing I can be proud of and be glad about.
Even if my story sucks, I will forever be proud of this story.
My characters and plot are beautiful and wonderful.
So, if it sucks, it's my fault for not being a better writer and for not having a better imagination.
Like they say, a carpenter never blame his tools. So, if my story sucks, it isn't the story's fault but it's mine.
But even then, I would be proud.
Writing this has been interesting.
At first, it felt easy and I was getting into the groove. Then, writer's block came or rather I started hating everything I wrote. Every word, every scene and every chapter felt wrong and out of place.
But at the end, the inspiration came and saved everything. I end up falling deeper in love with my own story and crying over the sad scenes that I wrote.
So, writing is beautiful, painful, brilliant and frustrating all at the same time.
But this has been a good year for writing because, I actually have two completed works now.
First, it's a short story called Aletheia. (the link is here.)
And now, my novel which is World's Apart. (the first three chapter link is here, if you want more, please do contact me.)
So damn proud.
Friday, November 22, 2013
I just came back from a rock concerts.
Wow, rock concerts are amazing. They really are blood, sweat and tears.
There were a lot of headbanging, screaming, singing, dancing and jumping.
And it was great.
I really enjoyed myself and had loads of fun.
But my body really aches now that the concert is over. Obviously, I overdid it.
I have no regrets though.
When the concert ended, all I can say is, I WANT MORE! THAT WASN'T ENOUGH!
Yup, they were that good.
So if they ever come back, I will definitely go.
Friday, November 15, 2013
My goal for nanowrimo this year is to finish my novel that I have been writing. After all, this novel has been in progress for years because I procrastinate alot. So, I feel that it's time to finish it. After all, a novel shouldn't take too long.
Anyhow, after a week of constant writing at night, my word count sucks but I can feel the story ending. My story has reached the last two arc. Soon, it will end.
The funny thing is, as much as I want to end, now that I am beginning to reach the end, I feel reluctant and not ready. I am not ready to let go of this baby. I find it funny and weird. My emotions are conflicting.
And nanowrimo so far has been interesting. Sometimes it's fun and nice to see the story progress. Other times it's hard because the word count is shit, the story is shit & the words that come out is shit. I also find it hard to balance my life because I have university in the day and I feel overwhelmed by its work.
But I decided to write at night and I find it hard because sometimes I feel so tired after a day of classes. So, I end up feeling dissatisfied at both ends because I feel like I made no progress in my story and my schoolwork is not completely done.
However, it isn't all bad. Like someone said, during nanowrimo, it's the time where the story comes first. Nothing else matters and it can all wait. As a writer, putting the story first feels great as I feel like I am giving it the attention it deserves.
And it's always nice to see my story progress and unreveal itself eventhough sometimes I disagree with it. But watching my story grow and stir on its own is very wonderful. And it's what makes writing brilliant.
So for now, I have no regret in doing nanowrimo
Friday, November 8, 2013
Last week, I fell sick.
And wow, it sucked.
I hate being sick.
I wasted a whole week being sick.
So I am a little behind college.
And I wasted a week.
I don't like being sick. I hate that I wasted a lot of time. SIGHS.
Being sick sucks though.
And that's all I have to say.
Friday, October 25, 2013
Yes, another rant.
What is that rant?
I need more internet time.
My current time is not nearly enough for me to blog, check emails, watch anime, take personality quizzes & just surf the internet.
I don't even have enough time to watch the anime that I want to and I currently only have 3.
What the actual shit?!
Anyhow, my internet time is running out.
Until next week then.