Friday, October 21, 2016

Being a writer

Recently, I been getting ideas and inspirations for my stories.

Eventhough the timing is bad because I get these ideas at work, I am not the type of person who reject ideas.

My biggest fear as a writer has always been running out of ideas.

So whenever, I have a steady stream of ideas, I am very happy.

I been trying to get my ideas out.

It's hard to explain my creative process as a writer.

My stories are usually fueled by the characters. So my characters are very important to me.

My characters are usually born from emotions.

So my inspiration are usually from emotions. I get these emotions randomly. Sometimes through songs, sometimes random thoughts or books or movies.

I usually have to process these emotions. Put them into a character or see which emotion fit which character.
Then, from that, the characters will react to the emotions, creating the scenes. So for my stories, it is completely fueled by emotions.

I know it sounds complicated. But that's my process for creating my stories.

But if you were to ask me where exactly I get my ideas for my stories, I would say I don't know.

I would say, somehow, they just come to me. I won't even dare say they are completely my ideas because I feel like my ideas came from the universe.

They aren't exactly mine.

It's like having children.

You made them. Yes. 
But they don't belong to you.

They are their own person and you are a proud parent.

And being a writer is the same thing.

You are proud of your characters but I am aware I don't own them. They are alive and they will do what ever the hell they want.

Sunday, October 16, 2016

Decision for now.

I was frustrated with my career recently.
Not because my job sucks.

But because I was still wondering what it is that I wanted.

Although I am still figuring that out.

I decided that I would do my best in my job.

Until December.

But when December comes, then, I will decide again.

Because I want to give this job time.

I wanna give this a chance.

So for now, this is my decision.

Sunday, October 9, 2016

Where we are.

I may live to regret this post.
Or I may not.

I generally do not talk about my love life.
It's something I keep really quiet and tight on.
Only a few know. 
Very tiny few. 

But I'm writing this because this because we reached a point in our relationship.
And I think it's a pretty important point.

It's been a year and a few months since we been together officially.

And right now, I think we reached a really comfortable point.

We know each other much better now.
So in a way, we kinda reached that point where we can finish each other sentences.

Point is, we are very comfortable with each other.
I enjoy the fact that I can turn to him and talk to him about everything under the sun.

We tease, discuss and rebut each other points.

And it's just fun to be looking at someone and going, did you just become a good friend? 

And it's just great to have the person you love as your good friend.

I'm just glad.

I don't say best friend because that word and me somehow don't get along.
Best friends have always somehow turned out badly for me. So yea
So I don't want to say that word. 

Monday, October 3, 2016

Patience or rather impatience.

I'm not gonna lie. Patience is something that I have always struggled with. 

I don't do well with waiting.

But as time has passes, I learnt that good things come to those who wait.
I do admit though, waiting is probably one of the hardest things to do.

Like currently, I am working in a job.

I am not sure if this is the job I want.
But then again, I am not sure what is it I want.

I know I should be patient. I should give myself time. Give the job time. 
Then slowly figure it out. Figure what I want. Figure out if this job gives me that.

However, I am also so afraid of wasting time.
Wasting time in a job that I don't want at the end of the day.
I hate wasting time.

I want to start right.
But then again, what is starting right?

I know I am just being paranoid.
But hey.
This is how I feel.

I know I need to deal with it.

And I will. 

So yea.

Sunday, September 25, 2016


One of my biggest temptations is definitely Apple products in terms of materials. Things that I really really want to buy.

I have always love Apple for their simple yet beautiful design for both hardware and software. 

Hence it has always been hard for me to resist them.

With the recent release of the Apple Iphone and Apple Watch Series 2, I admit that my brain has been thinking about them alot recently.

I been talking about Apple to many people, both offline and online. 

Anyhow, Apple products aren't cheap and cost a fair bit. 

As usual, I am swayed to get apple products.

I am very tempted. It's taking alot of me to just tell myself to not buy. 

But of course, I'm not too scared for myself.
I have been tempted before.
I have been in this position before. 

I been tempted this badly before.
Back then, it was worse because I knew I couldn't afford those and yet I wanted so badly.

But now, I am able to afford them but question is, do I blow such a big hole in my pocket because I still not at the point of life yet where I can afford many many riches.

I know some people think I'm crazy for loving Apple so much. Well, this is art to me. And I'm willing to pay for it. 

To be honest, I am not sure if I should get the new Iphone or the Apple Watch Series 2.

When it comes to a smart watch, I just want something I can exercise with, you know.
Something that tracks my exercise.
Something with heart rate monitor.
Something that does a good job at it.

So I'm not sure if I should get an Apple Watch or just get a wearable such as a fitbit, you know.

As for Iphone, my current is phone is fine. But a nice new iphone wouldn't hurt either. Haha. yea. Oh well.

These are my temptations and they are strong.

I wonder how I will handle them. Hahaha.

Friday, September 9, 2016


Sorry that I haven't blogged in a while. You can blame work and life for that.

Anyway, I'm back.


I am a huge Apple fan.

I am kind of in love with the new apple products.

Bad thing about loving Apple is that it's expensive and I know they will just take all my money away from me.

Time to work harder so that I can afford Apple products.
Just joking. But really. Haha. 

Anyway, I am not the kind of person who splurges on gadgets. I do loads of thinking and budgeting. 

But are those things on my wishlist? Absolutely.
But will I buy them? That depends.

I love Apple because they are innovative. 
Like they took away the 3.5mm earphone jack. 
Are many people pissed? Absolutely.
But then again, this is innovation.
Doing something new.
So even though I don't like it, I respect that.

Other than that, I like that Apple design for lifestyles.
I love that the new Apple Watch Series 2 will be user friendly to people on wheelchairs or that the Iphone 7 has this Apple Homekit thing or the mindfulness app.
Sure I don't use those features.
But the fact those are included for people, it's amazing.
It's about the details.
And I love that Apple thinks about some of those and try to work on them.

To me, right now, Apple is not just products.
It's a lifestyle.
And it's one I want to live.

True, many people would say that I succumb to their marketing ploy.
And maybe they are right.
But as long as I don't get in debt to buy them, and as long as I enjoy them,
this is a win win situation.
I am not their slave. Neither are they mine.

They just happen to provide things I really want so I exchange money for it. 

Sunday, August 14, 2016


I got leaked exam results.
For me, when I get my results, I consider that the point of where I graduate.

Because when the exams end, it's still uncertain. You can still fail things and end up still in university because you need to retake the papers.

But when the results is out, it's certain. You know what grade you make. You know for certain, you don't have to go back there or if you have to go back there.

The results for my exams were...interesting. They were both to my expectations and out of my expectations.

My aim was first class, of course. And in the end, I only got second upper. 

Well, I am not too disappointed. 
In the end, it's not the grades that mattered.

It was what I learned. It was what has happened in this three years.

University has been magnificently wonderful to me.
I have learnt.

My university has taught me that I can think. That I am one of the best. We all are.
So chins up.
Smiles on.

We did it.
We survived. 
No, better than that. We thrived.

At the end of the day, some of us may not have gotten the results we wanted.
But boy, did we have fun?
But boy, did we learn?
But boy, did we do our best?
And it was yes to all of the above.

I feel like I have become a much better person. A more polished diamond. 

But of course, this is not the end of our journey. We have much more to travel. Alot more to learn.

But this s our life.
The world is our stage.
And may we play it to the best of our abilities.

Here's to us.
Here's to our life.
Here's to all our dreams and hopes.

Here's to everything.
To more.
To the future.
To the past.
To the present.