Friday, January 23, 2015

Life and infinite possibilities.

Recently, I have felt extremely happy and excited to be alive. 

Anyhow, recently, I was wondering if I should buy an Ipad Mini for university purposes. I thought hard and long about it. 

Well, in the end, I decided to get one.

But as I was thinking if I should get one, my thoughts went to so many places that it was really interesting.

It was in that moment that I realized that life had infinite possibilities. Anything can happen. So much things can happen that it is brilliant.
Problem is, we have time and money constraints.

That makes me a little sad. 
However, that shouldn't stop us from knowing that life itself is brilliant with infinite possibilities and this fact makes me really excited for life itself.

I am a greedy person though. If it's possible, I want them all. However, in life, that's not quite possible. So choices have to be made.

When you know so much infinite possibilities exists, sometimes, that makes it hard to decide. 
The reason that it is hard is because when you decide, you feel like you are limiting yourself.

But decisions have to be made.
And so, in the end, I did make one.

Thursday, January 15, 2015

Week 2 of 2015

Well, it's the second week of 2015.

How are things for me?

It's alright, I suppose.

Achieving new year resolutions are never easy.

It's an interesting journey with ups and downs.

Just this week alone, I had moments where it felt really hard to keep my new year resolutions and other times, it feels easier.

But life is that way. So yea.

Friday, January 9, 2015

Sometimes the limit is yourself.

I plan for this year to be great, wonderful and fabulous.

So, I am starting out with optimism. Loads of it.

Some days have been good, some days not so much.

But it's okay. Life is a journey and the most important thing is to continue moving on.

To be honest, I am changing some of my personal beliefs this year compared to last year.

I want to do well in my degree, so I have to feel and behave like someone who does well.

It's not that I haven't behaving like someone who wants to do well. I been studying hard and doing my best.
However, my emotions are constantly in a turmoil.

I am constantly afraid that I can't do it.
I am constantly doubting myself every time I hit a tough topic.
I am constantly going, I am not sure.
Point is, I don't see myself as a top student.

If anything, I just see myself as a struggling mediocre student who wants to do well.

And I need to stop.

I need to start believing myself.

I need to stop panicking and doubting and being afraid every time I hit a tough topic.
I need to just breathe and keep moving forward.
I need to stop whining.

So yea.

Sometimes, the reason why you don't do well is because you don't see yourself doing well.
Well, I don't want that.
I want to do well
So I need to believe that I am a top student and to work hard.

Thursday, January 1, 2015


Well, the new year is here.

And honestly, I am glad. I been feeling rather prepared lately for the new year to come. So now that it's here, I feel happy and relieved. It's like a new chapter of a book. A fresh start.

Anyway, every new year, I make new year resolutions. It's my thing. But unlike most people, I actually try to work at it.

Honestly, new year resolutions to me isn't a bad thing. It's like planning for your year and how you want it turn out. Sometimes, it doesn't turn out exactly as you planned but at least you had a plan.

Sometimes, my new year resolutions are of previous years because I haven't achieved them. There's nothing wrong with being unable to achieve your old new year resolutions as long as you tried your best. The thing about life is, it's not a straight road. 

Let's say, your new year resolution is to exercise. So you start exercise. Then, somewhere along the line, you got lazy and stopped. But that doesn't mean, you consider yourself a failure and get rid of that new year resolution. 

If anything, you start over. You try to start exercising again. There will be days where you feel lazy but don't give up. Keep working at it. Keep trying.

And new year resolutions can be changed along the way or you can add new resolutions when you come up with one.

So yea. I just don't like it when people say that new year resolutions is stupid because it doesn't work. 
Because it does work. 
The question is, do you want it to work?

Anyway, I feel like posting up my new year resolutions this year. 

  • Let go of all of my fears and doubts.
  • Be more aware of my emotions and thoughts.
  • Stop allowing other people's opinions (real or imagined) to affect me.
  • To continue growing and learning.
  • To be more confident.
  • To be happy and at peace. (or to be zen)
  • To be fabulous like Thranduil.By fabulous, it means, I want to have beautiful hair like Thranduil and also to behave as fabulous as Thranduil, the elf king.
  • I want to enjoy the journey of my life and to live my life to the fullest.

Thursday, December 25, 2014


I hope everyone had a wonderful christmas because I did.

This weekend, I am wondering if I should get a new phone which is the Lumia 535 but I am still thinking about it.

And this Saturday, I will be going to Comic Fiesta. However, this year, I won't be volunteering.

I fell sick earlier this week so I am not in the mood of recovering from overtaxing myself in an event. So I decided to only go to one day for a short while. 

Plus, it's all win win for me because I got a free ticket from a friend. Hehehehehe

Anyway, the new year is coming and it's time to come up with new year resolutions. I do this every year.
But unlike most people, I actually work at my new year resolutions. So yea.

PS, I was so obssessed with Thranduil that I actually wrote a fanfiction of it. So yea. 

Friday, December 19, 2014


This might be a long post so I apologize in advance.
Personally, I was never really a fan of Lord of the Rings. But I watched The Hobbit series because, well, my friends wanted to watch a movie and they chose that one.

Honestly, I never really understood Lord of the Rings as a child. All I know was that the movie were beautiful and long. My favourite back then as a child was Legolas. 

I only liked Legolas because, well, how could I not like him. He was good looking and he was a very good archer. Other than that, he had really nice long blonde hair and he was graceful. It was hard for me to not like him. Therefore, back then, as a child, I only watched Lord of the Rings for Legolas.

Then, when I watched The Hobbit, I was so glad to see Legolas. It was like seeing an old friend again from my childhood that I vaguely remember.

AND THEN, his father was introduced. Lord Thranduil, the King of the Wood Elves. 

From that moment on, Legolas had to move aside because I really like his father now. His father was absolutely beautiful and fabulous. However, that was not the only thing that attracted. There was something deeper in his character. The way he carries himself.

He is King but it looked like the weight of his crown was heavy, no matter how beautiful it was. And that was what interests me.

So when I watched the final movie to The Hobbit series, I truly enjoyed it because I got to see Thranduil character more.

I think the reason that I connected with Thranduil as a character is because character such as his are so rare.

I miss having fabulous kings with luscious beautiful hair who can fight when it's needed.
I miss having characters where their motives aren't shown so clearly and they are misunderstood in the beginning (some manage to see through this while others don't).

And I have a thing for characters with long perfect hair. (Lucious Malfoy from Harry Potter, Lestat from The Interview with the vampire and last but not least, Phillipe or Louis from The Man in the Iron Mask)

There are people out there who think that man are ugly with long hair. Well, they are wrong. Long hair were only for nobles in the past. It's a symbol of power and prestige. Not only that, it's also a symbol of intelligence. So yea.

The reason why I like a character like Thranduil is because I, myself, have a character like this in my head.
Yes, and his name is Xerxes.

Xerxes is my fabulous intelligent character. But at the same time, like Thranduil, there's a pain in him that is so deep rooted that it controls everything he does.

By watching Thranduil, my head is trying to give more character to Xerxes or rather make him more fabulous. I am currently wondering if I should give him long hair or his best friend, long hair. lol.

Anyhow, I guess Thranduil character is beautiful to me because he is an elf. Elves lives very deep profound lives and they only marry once. Therefore, if their loved ones die, they will never remarry and they will mourn till the end of time. He lost his wife.

And because he has a son, he has to raise his son alone and that breaks my heart.

Other than that, he probably hates fighting because he saw his father and fellow elves comrades die in the battle of the last alliance.  

This little details about his character makes me very curious about his thoughts processes and his motives.

Point is, I love Thranduil character because to me, I think it's well done.

If there was a movie just on Thranduil and Legolas, I will definitely watch it.

Friday, December 12, 2014

Christmas is coming.

There is only 11 days left to Christmas~!

I am so excited~!

I have always loved Christmas. 
To me, Christmas is a time for friends and family. 

It is a time to stop everything you are doing and just spend some time with people you love.

It is a time to stop yourself and think about how the year has been.

It is a time to think about what you want the next year to be like.

It is a time to celebrate everything that happened in this year, good and bad.

It is a time to end the year on a good note.

So that's why I love Christmas.

And oh, I love the presents too.

Personally, I try to spread the Christmas cheer and one way of doing that is by sending out Christmas cards.
I know it's a dying tradition and some people thinks it's silly.
But sometimes, it may cheer people up.
Then, I will continue doing this.

Have a good Christmas celebration yourself~!

I know it's too early for Christmas but I just came back from my university christmas dinner, so I am feeling a little christmasy. 

As for my decision for the previous post on my summer break, I decided to focus on internship.

However, if I can slip in summer school, I will. If I can't, then, I won't.

Anyhow, THANKS FOR ALL THE VOTES. It really helped with my decision.