Friday, February 5, 2016


I been reading some articles regarding love lately.

To be honest, some article is shit. I can't believe those articles even exist because it is so sexist and silly.

There were quite a few articles that talked about what being in a bad relationship or when the other person isn't good for you.

There is nothing wrong with that.

However, I noticed one thing.

There was a lack of articles talking about how you can be a better person to love the other person.

It was always about how the other person sucks or failed you.

I wonder about ourselves. If we try to be there for the other person.

What if, we were the ones who were the bad ones in the relationship? What if we are the toxic one? 

But the sad thing is that, the articles were never about self reflection.

It was always about the other party.

But I like to think, every relationship is different. 

What matters is that you're happy in that relationship. As long as you are, then it's good.

Thursday, January 21, 2016


My country government decided to do something horrible which is to stop giving out scholarships to students in both foreign and local universities due to falling revenues.

Honestly, this is a horrible thing.

Because I know so many students count on scholarships to further their studies. Personally, I disagree with this entire system of scholarships and how they pick their recipients but that's a different story for another day.

I found this sad and terrible because this would rob away many students dream to further their studies.

Eventhough I have been lucky to been able to receive a tertiary education which is my undergraduate studies, I am aware that not everyone is as lucky as me.

But because I did not come for a rich family, I also know what it is like to have my dreams shatter in my very hands (my dreams was related to education.)

But as much this is horrible thing, no matter what happens, no what the silly government does, we still have to live our life.

This is where my optimism comes in.

The government can be ruining our life by increasing cost of living or the world can be falling apart out there, but it doesn't matter.
Yes, it doesn't matter.
What happens out there doesn't matter to me.
Sure, things are shit.

But my question to myself and even most people is, what are you gonna do about it?
How are you gonna live your life?

Because shitty things will happen. Governments may try to ruin the country, people may be starving and the economy may be failing. So are you going to let it destroy you? Or are you going to succeed and be happy despite it?

I believe that things will happen. Good and bad. But they don't determine how happy or how successful you will be.
That's why I won't understand people who only complains about how terrible this is and does nothing about it.

So things suck now, what are you gonna do to prevent it? What are you gonna do to live your life? 

One step at a time.
Do what you can.
Forget about everything else.
Move forward.

Always focus on what you can do and do it.

Sure, some people think it makes no difference. But I disagree.

I believe that we have some control in our life and if we use them well, we have the power to change our destinies and live the life of our dreams.

Sure, not many will agree with me but I like living this way. It empowers me. It allows me to control what I can and just go with the flow on what I can't.

So as for education, I know this is a terrible thing. 
But people often forget that our public universities still exists.

Sure, it's hard to get into our public universities and perhaps they aren't as prestigious as you like them to be, but it's an education at a much cheaper prize. So yea. A person should not complain about the flavor of their bread if they are starving.

Other than that, we have education institutions that are half funded by the government. Hence, cheaper tuition fees. Plus, we can get student loans which are from the government by the way. So that student loans can cover your education. 

So yes, we are still blessed with alternatives.

I find it boring that people complain all day long with no solution in mind.

The government owes us nothing. Sure, we pay our taxes. But does that mean they should listen to your every whim and fancy? Well, they obviously won't.

So live your life. Do what you want.
And get mad less often by terrible issues. 
Just promise to do good. To spread goodness because there's way too much negativity in our beautiful earth. 

Friday, January 15, 2016

Graduating soon?

If all goes well this final exam, I would be graduating.

My classmates and I are beginning to be aware of the fact that we will be graduating very soon. We are all happy and yet scared.

Happy because we are a little tired of studying. It's alot of hard work and we want to just finish.

Scared because we don't know what we want in terms of our career yet and the economy is not doing so hot right now.

I'm really trying hard to stay positive right now.

A classmate recommended me to apply for overseas internships in the big firms so I tried applying in some. Let me just say, it's hard work. Each application took me hours because I had to write essays.

Applying for a job feels harder than an application to a university. Because I can write one essay for a university and reuse it for multiple universities. But for jobs, each company may ask for different things, hence, I have to start thinking of writing each essay customized to each company.

One company actually required me to write three essays. Like wow. Okay. That took up most of my time and I was really tired. But I have to continue to apply to more places. So yea.

Wish me luck~~~!

Sunday, January 10, 2016


I know it may be surprising but I actually love weddings. People who are old friends with me assume that I'm not a wedding sort of person because I'm so tomboy-ish but actually, I have always love weddings because I'm a sentimental sort of person. I have actually imagined and planned my own wedding in my head multiple times in my life just for fun because it just looks so beautiful.

I attended a distant relative wedding the other day. They followed the more chinese custom sort of wedding.
Personally, I am not a fan of the way weddings are done in my culture. 
It's not because I dislike my culture.
But because I don't really value the same thing my culture does in weddings.

Personally, I wouldn't want to have a tea ceremony. According to the chinese culture, this is a way of the elders in your family to show their blessings and it's also a way that the bride and groom show respect to their elders.

I have no problem with respect. But for me, I believe that weddings should be about the couple. It should be a celebration of their union and to love in general. I understand it is in my culture to respect the elders but for me, I find it a little unnecessary.

Another thing I dislike is the fact that the groom and his best men are made to go through a certain amount of humiliation before the groom can see the bride. People have told me that it's in all good fun. But for me, I find it humiliating. If I was a groom, I would turn around and walk away. Because it's my wedding, why should I be subjected to humiliation? It should be my day. I should be treated as a king. I should be happy. 

For me, this is where I prefer a church like wedding. To walk down the aisle. I don't know the thought of walking the aisle seem symbolic of choosing to be with that person.

And to make vows. Ah, this is my favourite part. To promise each other that you choose this person and to be together till death parts the two of you. To say words that you want to tell the person you love.

Then, a dance. I would love to have a dance with my future partner. I don't know. It just seem like a cool thing. 

Those are three things that I must have in my future wedding.

Personally, I didn't like how the MC kept pestering the couple in the wedding recently. He kept telling them to have kids and blah blah. How annoying. 

But I like that there was a live band in the wedding dinner which was a really nice touch. I would like something like this too.

I guess I prefer a more quiet intimate sort of wedding. 

Friday, January 8, 2016

New Year Resolutions

New Year Resolution.

I always make New Year resolutions. 

To set the new year.

To set a direction for this year.

And to make sure I have goals for the year. 

To also complete old goals that I have left hanging from the previous years.

My New Year Resolutions for this year are :

  • Travel
  • Be healthy
  • Do well in university
  • Break a bad habit
  • Figure out my future and execute it
  • Choose happiness
  • To continue growing and learning
  • To be the best that I can be

For the breaking habit resolution, I been finding it pretty hard to break. But I'm really doing my best. It's a little frustrating because who knew a bad habit was so hard to break. But I really want to break it because I am sick and tired at seeing myself doing that habit. It's silly and it's stupid. So yea.

But just because I find it hard doesn't mean I'm going to say, ah, I failed my new year resolution because I didn't fail it yet. It's hard but I'm doing my best. So yea.

All the best to your new year~!

Thursday, December 31, 2015



What a great year it has been for me.

So much good has happened.

For first time in my life, the pieces of my life are coming together and I'm loving how it looks.

So many of my wishes have come true this year.

And honestly, I am reluctant to leave 2015.

It has been such a great year. That leaving it feels hard.

Because in 2016, I know things will definitely be changing. I'll be graduating soon. Hence, I would have to start decide about my future soon. 

But it's not like 2015 was without bad days, it had its fair share of bad days. But I think the good days outweigh the bad days completely.

Not only that, for the first time in my life, I'm looking at my life and I'm completely in love with it.

For once in my life, I'm looking at my life and I know this is where I need to be and I'm completely happy and proud of that.

So cheers to 2015.

But 2015 is about to end. So it's time to welcome 2016 instead.

And let's hope that 2016 will be so much better.

I know it might be impossible for things to keep getting better and going up. But I can hope and always do my best to look at the brighter side.

Saturday, December 26, 2015

Merry Christmas


And I hope everyone has a wonderful time.