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A week of horror.

Just when I said that I wanted to conquer the world, things start going wrong. This week has been harsh. Right now, I only had 4 hours of sleep which is very rare and I'm just so tired. But I choose to write this right now because I'm downloading a file plus, I haven't blogged in a while.

=/ Pictures, Images and Photos right now, I'm just sighing & I'm pissed bcuz I just can't seem to anything right. I worked my ass off with several of my friends on Thursday. We took hours to edit the video BUT then, it couldn't be saved. That pissed all of us. It took me several days before I could edit the video. Now, that I finally edited and saved the video. I can't upload it to youtube.
And due to this, I haven't finished my preparation for school.

See, problems after problems keep appearing. I really don't know what to do. Anyways, I just watched Fullmetal Alchemist : Brotherhood. (Look, this downloading file is HUGE!!) It's an awesome anime. I just love it.
Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood Pictures, Images and Photos
Maybe, you should check it out. It has alot of action in it. This anime is the only thing nice & fun in my entire week.

why can't things go smoothly? That would be so nice if it happened.

But then again, I said that it's time to conquer the world. So I will...!

Conquer the World Pictures, Images and Photos
(yea, this is my new quote and for now, I'm gonna go eat a fruit tart and watch another ep of Fullmetal Alchemist : Brotherhood.)

Ignore me, just felt like writing this :

He is right,I had nothing and I lost nothing. Everything I had belong to my parents. But then again, now that I have nothing, what would I do? Will I sink & fall to my doom or will I keep on fighting?
I decided that I will fight. I know that it would be like swimming with a rock tied to your ankle. I know that despair & darkness might surround me and kill me. I know that it may be harder this way. Even so, I want to believe in myself. Maybe he was right, only special people can be special and normal folks like us don't stand a chance.
Even so, if there was hope as thin as a spider web, I want to hold on to it. I want to fight. Because atleast, if I die, I died as person who fought rather than a person who cried.

~carmensakura07 Feb '09~


Sam said…
Fullmetal Alchemist
really nice movie !!!
Tell about brother hood !!

I love it too !!!

See you problem come and problem come ...
I also same like that ....

today ... i resign .. because .. i cannot get happy ...
cannot get all staff belief
No people belief me ...
So sad me ...

I using my true heart treat them ....
at last .. .see my blog then you know ...

I also end my blog too because this issue ...
sad ...

But I will leave this company and fight for my new future !!!

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