Skip to main content


Heart Pictures, Images and Photos

I know this post is a little late...I was quite busy lately so I apologize for this late post.
I was watching Clannad ~After Story~ and that show really made me cry & sob. I have never done that while watching a show. That show main theme is definately LOVE.

CLANNAD Pictures, Images and Photos

This show is about this delinquent bum named Tomoya Okazaki who meets a girl name Nagisa Furukawa. They became friends and later, they fell in love with each other. Akio and Sanae (Nagisa parents) even allowed him to stay in their house while he was going through a rough patch with his dad. His dad is a alcoholic and Tomoya doesn't have mother because she died when Tomoya was a kid.
After they graduate, Tomoya and Nagisa got married. Nagisa was soon pregnant and because she had a weak body, she died while giving birth to Ushio. Tomoya got depressed and gave his daughter to Akio and Sanae. When he finally got the guts to raise her up, she falls sick and dies.

If that isn't sad, then, I don't know what is.

This show had many father-daughter relationship and that really hit home for me. It reminded me of my father and I. Well, unlike Ushio, my mother is alive and I'm quite healthy but I am closer to my dad. When I was younger, my dad is the one who will stay home and look after me while my mum goes to work. (my mom works super late last time. My dad will come home by 6.)

clannad after story Pictures, Images and Photos

There were several episode that really reminded me of my dad and I. Like when, Akio told Tomoya about how he carried Nagisa in his arms, running, trying to safe her. He was also praying for her health.

I remember one time when my father brought me to a dinner party with him. Suddenly, I had a really bad stomachache. It was so painful that I remember rolling on the floor. My dad actually carried me & drove me home. He left the dinner party immediately without any hesitation. When he carried me, I remember the pale shocked face he had.
So when my stomachache finally eased after 2 hours, I apologize to my dad about being a trouble to him. He just ignored those words and pat my head, asking if I feel better.

In Clannad After Story, Tomoya carried Ushio this way and Ushio was so happy. I remember when my dad carried me this way. He always carry me when we went to the circus or funfair. It feels so long ago but I remember that I felt safe when he did this. I felt strong and that nothing could hurt me. Even though, my dad wasn't the tallest man in the world. I felt like the tallest and strongest thing in the world.

When Tomoya knew his wife was pregnant, he worked even harder because now, he realise that he had to support himself, his wife and their child. He didn't find that to be a burden instead, it became his motivation.

I never realise what a child meant to their parents. I always thought that I was trouble to my parents. I never knew that parents look forward to their child's birth. I felt guilty for ruining my parents dreams but what I didn't know is that a child is the parents dream. Our dream is their dream.

Even though, my parents told me that it was not my fault. I felt guilty. But after watching Clannad After Story, I realise all this.

No man lives on their own. They are being supported while supporting people around them. I promise that I will now work hard. For myself, for my parents and for people whose dreams were never realised.

Mum and Dad,
Thanks for just being there for me.
I love you.


Luffy Sam said…
No man lives on their own. They are being supported while supporting people around them.

I love that ~~
One more people that love parents !!
I really happy for it !!
Because know parents hard work, love.

Time to take care them, love them is start on this time.
Don't wait !!

I also love my parents and sister brother !
Let walk together !!
xxxChrisHunterxxx said…
Wow, that must be one hell of an anime. You must have love your dad. IT's rare to hear of kids saying tat they love their parents.

I might watch that anime. Sounds awesome.
guitargirl said…
Wow. That's a great post. Kind of made me feel the same way about my parents just by reading it. LOL. *suddenly feels emotional*

Anywayz, thanx for your comment :-D I was basically blogging from the viewpoint of a person who believes in a God (because I do ;)) and I do believe He's good and has stuff planned out for the better; sometimes I just don't understand the stuff He does, so I like to figure things out. That's all that post was. But deep thinking is painful, so I don't do it often. HAHAHA! ;)

Popular posts from this blog

Much Ado About Our Healthcare

During this week, something terrible but hilarious when you looked back, happened to me.

It was a normal Monday morning. It was close to the end of the month, so I was awaiting for my salary to come in. I was just trying to just hold on till the end of the month. Typical monday. Nothing eventful yet.

Then, it was lunchtime.
I went to lunch with my colleagues.
I ordered myself a lovely nasi kukus with ikan keli. That means steamed rice with catfish for those of you who don't read malay. 

One of my colleague often order this and it always looked good so I decided to give it a try.

Bad mistake.

I ended up having a fishbone stuck in my throat. When you think of it, it's pretty silly. But it scared the living daylights out of me at that moment. I tried swallowing rice to push the fishbone down but after half a bowl later, I found it to be not working.

I heard from my dad when I was younger that, if a fishbone get stuck in your throat, you had to do an operation. And that only fueled my fea…

Design Thinking and Steve Jobs

This is going to be a long post and I apologize. 

Anyway my department meeting yesterday talked about design thinking and it only reminded me of Steve Jobs.

I have always loved Apple and Steve Jobs. I know Steve Jobs wasn't the greatest guy ever. He could have been nicer and etc. But this is not about that. This is about his vision, his beliefs and philosophy. I never quite realised how much I believed in Steve Jobs philosophy until I sat down and thought about it. 

I admired Steve Jobs philosophy of design first. I don't know if he was the first guy who made design thinking into a thing. Or if he is the one who popularize that thinking?

Minimalism. Simplicity. Clean. Aesthetics. User friendly. He made sure Apple designs abide by this. And this is what I have always loved about Apple. He made technology sexy, beautiful and cool. 

I never quite realised that I, myself, believed in these values.

But today, as I sat down and think, I realised that, the older I grow, the more I have tu…

Dear me,

I watched an anime where a girl managed to write a letter to her past self of ten years. True, that's not possible in reality but the concept of that is interesting. She wrote to her ten years younger self to avoid her regrets. She wanted her past self to change certain decisions in the past so that her current self won't have any regrets.

Personally, I wouldn't want to tell my past self to change her decisions to avoid regrets. Do I have regrets? Yes. But I won't change them because I learnt from them. And that has been grow as a person. So I don't quite regret that.

However, if I could write a letter to my past self, it would be fun. If I were to write to my ten years younger self, that would be my 13 year old self. And this is what I would love to say.

Dear me,

Hello there. This is your 23 year old self. I know, it's unbelievable. You can barely imagine yourself at that age currently. 
I still remember being 13. Vaguely. My memory isn't that great.

But I remem…