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Boulevard of broken dreams.

A quiz told me that my theme song is boulevard of broken dreams by green day. At first, I thought that it was bullshit but after listening to that song several times. I agree. That song is my theme song...for now.

The year 2009 has been hard, rough and tough for me. I had more depressing moments this year than happy moments. This year definitely wasn't my best year. I didn't get the sweet sixteen feeling. I got the opposite instead.

And it's true. I feel like I'm walking like a boulevard of broken dreams. Everything I wanted to achieve, I didn't. And for a while, this felt very painful.

But I know that I have to move on and forward. The further I walk, the longer I see the road ahead of me. But it's never about the destination, it's about the journey. So I might as well, take my time and enjoy myself.

So here are the 5 promises I made to myself.

1. I love myself at all times & I'm worthy.
2. I will finish what I started
3. I will do my best at all times
4. I will accept my results
5. I won't regret anything in the future.

Because I really don't want to regret anything in the future and I don't want to feel sad in the future. So this 5 promises to myself have to be kept. Maybe, you should promises to yourself too.

And I learnt that, even if you failed, doesn't mean you are a failure. Just because you made a mistake, doesn't mean you're a mistake. Even if you think, you're not your thoughts. You're you and you have the choice to change anyyhing you hate.

Here are some other songs that you may like...(well, I like them)




Luffy Sam said…
yes !!!

Promises myself.
I also need to do it too !!

Thank for you to let me know everythings that need write out and promise to done it.

Many people laugh at me but I belief that is no write out at blog here to remaid me.

Nothing will happen at all in my life !!
So i must write out and promise myself !!
guitargirl said…
Hey-ya! I think I took a quiz like that once and I got some U2 song that I had never heard before :/

If it's any consolation, 16 was a crappish year for me too. LOL!

And of course you can do that tag! It's fuuuuun! :-D

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