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I was rereading my blog. There's some nonsense, drama & fun in it. It's interesting to read what you wrote in the past. It's like a time capsule.
I only have one thing to say. Wow, I was depressed person and I'm a bit embarrassed with what I wrote. I can't believe I actually wrote those posts. Sigh...

But looking at my posts in the past reminds me of my crush & certain friendships.

I know why they call crushes, crushes. Because a crush usually crushes you. Yea, it kinda suck. Guess, I'm not lucky in "love" or with my "crush".

As for the certain friendship thing, I was looking back & wondering. What exactly went wrong? We had a super huge argument and then, poof. It ended. Our friendship is gone. Why couldn't we fix it?

How did she do it? How do you forget all those deep conversations, long phone calls & promises? We used to be so close. We talked every single day. Now, you can't even look me in the eye. (vice versa)

Maybe, she moved on. Good for her.

I won't lie. I do miss what we had. But then again, that's life. I'll just have to deal with it. Fullstop.

I know you won't be reading this, but if you did. I'm sorry.

In fact, I'm sorry to anyone & everyone I ever offended. I never mean it. I'm a jerk sometimes. sigh. Point is, I'm sorry & thank you for everything. You have no idea what you meant to me. I do wish I could make it up to you.



And then, I reconnected with some old friends. Well, it's always great to be close with your old friends.

Comments

Yes,
I love to write blog after I will review back.

Got funny and how stupid that I done.
That the place let me learn and remain me again.

That all will get you sorry ya.
Don't be sad.
Let together walk to the new 2011 years ya !!
Go go go !!!
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Il semble que vous soyez un expert dans ce domaine, vos remarques sont tres interessantes, merci.

- Daniel

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