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I don't know why I'm talking about this today. Maybe it's because I've been reading some really depressing stuff.

The story I'm reading is about a man who tried to kill himself thrice. And it's talking about why did he want to do it.

When I read it, I just felt for him. I mean, I understood him and why he wanted to do it.

Depression is not just sadness. It's more than that. It's that hopelessness that you feel. You feel like a failure, worthless and useless. You hate your own existence. You wish you didn't disappoint everyone around you. You wish you were dead so you wouldn't be a burden.

That is depression. It's more than being sad.

And another about depression is that it's always a battle. Just because you had it once and now, you feel better does not mean it'll never come back.

Some days, it'll come back and you'll just have to fight it.

And it's not easy.

That's why people kill themselves.

Depression is when you hit your breaking point. Then, you fall into a downward spiral. The next thing you know, you'll be trying to end your life because you want to end your agony.
It's giving up on life.

And usually, things get really crappy the moment you despise yourself to the point of ending your own life.

So no, it's not easy for people with depression to just snap out of it. You can't snap out of it. You never do. You just keep fighting and hoping for the better.

If you ever see someone who is depressed, don't you dare mock them. Just listen to them. Most of the time, that'll help.

Sometimes, all you need to do is to be there for them. Just be by their side.

I'm just saying that not everyone is born with a cheerful smile etched on their faces.

Some people have it harder due to their genes, situation or even decisions.

And to anyone who feels depressed, I know I may sound like I'm bullshitting but there is someone out there who loves you and treasures you. You are important.
Have some hope.
Hang on there.
The storm may look like it'll last forever but it'll be over sooner or later.
Storms can't last forever.

Learn to love yourself and accept yourself.
That's the most important thing.
And remember to screw the world when the world is talking nonsense.


Happy "Sam" said…
Thank for sharing !!
I love this title !!
Depression !!

Because this weeks ...
I am like that for this weeks ...
Easy angry ... like girl "autie visit" time ...
Cannot patient ...

Hurt people heart then said sorry ...
That no use already ...

I patient and listen to my heart !
Correct where i wrong !!

Kill themself,
I can said 100% is wrong because they try run away from part of challager in life !!

Life got up and down !
Ribbion got colour !!

You also must strong too !!
Let together strong !!

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