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Growing up and change?

You will be 19 this year.

Well, that scared the shit out of me. 
Well, it proved that everything is changing and I am growing up. It also made me wonder, how the hell did time just pass so fast?

Change. Growing up.

Suddenly, a part of me was afraid. Afraid of change and growing up. I just wanted to stay young. I wanted the past again. I wanted to be in high school and laughing away with my bunch of friends, crazily and innocently. 
I didn't want to be 19. I didn't feel 19.
19 meant that I'm a young adult. Well, frankly, I don't feel that way.
I feel 16, 17 or 18. 

I can feel that change is coming. I can feel it's whirring power and I guess, I'm kinda afraid of what will happen. After all, we all don't know what the future brings. We rather have the past. It's something that we are familiar with. Even if the past wasn't great, at least, it was something that we know.

The unknown is always scary.

And for a moment, I nearly resisted change.

Another huge part of me slaps me in the face, telling me that the past is gone. And no matter what I do, I can never go back and change it. The only choice I have to move on, to change and grow. After all, anything is possible in the future.

With that, I accepted change. 

I know that sometimes, change is difficult. It's whizzing by, making everything uncertain and you have that fear. But then again, you have to let change take you. You have to let go and let it whizz you away.

You never know what that change may bring and so far for me, it has only brought me good. It whizzed me to a place where my regrets have been dropped and where I can look ahead and dream again. 

So yea. 

Sometimes, you have to stop living in the past or else you'll never appreciate the present and you'll forget to dream of the future.

And that my friend, will make you bitter.
So, let go and move on.

Just remember the past for its lessons, live and appreciate the present while looking forward to the future~!



Happy "Sam" said…
Yes !!

Change somethings may be happen !!
But no chance .... I can said !!!
forever will be same !!

hehe !!
Now i also change to marry mode.
hehe ~
I am waiting the challanger !~

You also must keep it up ~~
No need worry ~

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