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Things of the past.

I read a friend's blog about her finding memories on old friendships.




Instantly, it made me think of her. Jun-chan.

How is it that so much has changed when once upon a time, we used to laugh and cry together?
How is it that our ties were severed so badly when once upon a time, we called each other sisters?

How could it have gone so wrong and so bad?

Of all the friendships, it is hers that I missed the most.

It does hurt from time to time when I think about her.
It does hurt to know that we are no longer so close.

I wish we could still be close but the reality isn't so. It's unfortunate but it's the truth.
I'll miss her and she'll always have a place in my heart.
I know I probably mean nothing to her now but, it makes me happy that, once upon a time, I meant something to her.

It's nice to read those old posts about me. It's really nice. In a way, it's just traces of the past. Of what it used to be.
Even though, we are not close now. It's still nice to see these traces. For some reason, it makes me feel better and not so sad.

And then, there are other friendships that you want to turn into things of the past.

She was my childhood friend. The one whom I thought would be there for me, no matter what.
But when I was alone, she was the one whom wasn't there at all.
It hurts.
And now, I'm just tired.
I'm sorry.
Maybe, I'm outgrowing her. Maybe not. I don't know. All I know is, I'm done with her.

Friendships.

It's not an easy thing. It needs two people to keep it afloat. Sometimes, it sinks. Sometimes, it floats. Sometimes, it drifts apart.

I wish all friendships could last. But I know, not all will.

All I can say is, I will appreciate each friend that come and I will try to keep them close.

I know that people and things will change. But so will I. 
And I can only hope that'll make our friendship grow.

But if it doesn't, I will understand.

The great thing about friends are that, you can always reconnect with old friends and find new friends.

So yea.

Comments

Kath Lee said…
I love this post. :D
Happy "Sam" said…
Yeah !!
Time really go very fast !!

Friendship is very important.
One people can do a lot of things but if want to do big things need people !!

Friend !!
You are the one !!
^_^

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