I guess I'm in a very dark place in my head.
I thought I was getting better, cheering up.
But something happened which I'm not completely sure myself and I fallen into a darker pit.
All I know is that I'm not alright.
I want to recover. I want to be happy but for some reason, it's very hard right now.
I didn't know that when I made my new year resolution, it would be so hard to keep.
I guess, I have never been so upset in my entire life.
If anime, writing and abridged series can't help me, then, I truly have really fallen into a pit darker than ever before.
And that's the truth.
I don't know what will happen now on or when I can truly smile from the bottom of my heart.
I hope things will get better soon. I can hope.
And to make things worse, I have to decide between a broken dream and a painful reality.
What decision would you make if you were in my ugly shoes?
Ps, sorry for my sad crappy ramblings.