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Doubt and Trust.

Doubt and Trust by access.

That song was probably not necessary but I wanted it to be there.
It's probably one of my favourite songs and it popped up immediately when I thought about doubts.

My friend, Min was right.
Doubts are bad.
They corrode us. 
They chip us away, bit by bit.
And that's no good.

But we are humans.
We will have our worries.
We will have our doubts.

But once again, she was right.
Think, by all means, before you make your decision.
But after that, don't doubt it.
Just go into it with all your heart.

if you doubt, that is the only thing stopping you.
Meaning, you are only stopping yourself.

I'm so proud of Min and how she found this wisdom.
It amazes me.
How I couldn't see that, maybe, it was my doubts that caused me to fall hard.
And she could.
I'm glad that she shared that with me.

So no more doubts.
Yes, once in a while, we will doubt.
But I will not let it ruin me anymore.
I want to trust myself more.
(see the doubt and trust theme here. now, you get why the video is so relevant. ok, that was lie. I just really wanted the video to be there because I like it. A lot. I already memorize all the lyrics a long time ago. so yea)

I can't change the world.
But I can change myself.
I can try to be happy.
And hopefully, I can help my friends like how they help me.
Maybe, that'll make the world better.
Or not.

So yes.
Give yourself time to think.
Then, think hard.
Doubt everything.
When you finally make your decision,
just trust yourself and just do your best.

That's a good way to live.


Hui Min said…
*is surprised* i'm glad that i helped...i thought i didn't...well, went to utar today, the consultant even said that your choice is good so...
文儀 said…
lol, the greatest thing that min has let me know is that even the stupid friends we thought they are, they actually have feelings too. While we were keep saying why can't they just understand, we tend to ignore the fact we assumed they are so stupid most of the time. It is unfair that everyone have feelings, it is personal. and yeah, we, they and I kind of good bye but I am glad I learn that myself are being stupid to assumed they are stupid.I should never ignore their feelings.

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