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Once again, standing at the cross road of life.

Here I am, standing at the cross road of life. Every decision I make will help create my future.
Good and bad.

Who doesn't want a good future? Who doesn't want to be happy?

But this is the thing.

To get what you want, you have to fight and sacrifice.

And sometimes, in the end, you won't even get what you want.

I'm young. So young.
I still haven't seen much or felt much.
Yet, my future rest on my shoulders now.
My decision making right now isn't too great.
For I am still young.

Yet, it is now that I have to decide.

Sad thing is, I'm selfish and greedy.

I want everything that I can attain.
I want everything.

And I won't be satisfied until I have it all.

But sadly, sometimes the world won't gives us everything.

Oh well. 

I will do my best and we'll just see how life turns out.

C'est la vie.


miss.yuuka said…
I think for some of us, this step in life is a given. It was for me. I had offers... but turned them all down because they weren't anything I wanted to pursue. In the end, what matters is your choice.

Yeah, we don't always get what we want. I have been at the receiving end of that all too many times. In fact, it made me thick-skinned and pushed me to find ways to make it work.

Good luck! Yeah, the world doesn't give us everything but it's all about how we make the most of what we have. Sometimes, what we want may not be the right thing or it's just not the right time yet. That, I believe to be true.

Just hold your head up high and go for your dreams. It's a rocky road I know. Yet people often go through it all before they triumph. =)

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