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The frustration of life.

I just want to live. I just want to be happy.
I just want to do everything so that I don't regret anything ever.

But I can't.
I can't do everything.
It's simply not possible.

Well, that's how I feel currently anyway.

I feel extremely tired and frustrated.

This two weeks were suppose to be a holiday for me but they were the worse holiday ever.

I still had Sociology classes on Monday & Tuesday. So that took up a lot of time and energy.
I wanted to write but I couldn't come up with anything good.
I wanted to watch anime but time just feels wasted.
I wanted to relax but my mind is pacing everywhere.
I wanted to read but my mind couldn't enter the worlds.
I wanted to study but I feel so tired.
I wanted to exercise but my body felt heavy.
I wanted to eat but I felt fat.

I did these things in bits and pieces. And so, it felt unproductive and a waste of time.

So yea.

I have only felt frustrated lately.
It's sad, really.

I just want to live. Is that so hard?

And it doesn't help that after reading and watching THE GREAT GATSBY.

I feel absolutely depressed. This book and movie, just made me so sad. 
It's a good book and movie. But it's sad and it has a way of corroding you.


Happy "Sam" said…
(replying from my blog)

Welcome !! hehe !!

Anythings also can solve.
Don't so much worry !!

This 2 weeks ....
My mother in law friends get robbery after that let car hit pass away ....

My secondary schoolmate also get robbery but lucky no get hurt...

And yesterday my sister get robbery too ...

Sad sad ...
but what to do ...
Facing it then alert more !!

Remember take care !!
hehe ~

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