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A silent wish.

I won't lie. There are days where I miss them immensely. 
Who do I miss?
A group of high school friends that accepted me for who I am, no matter how broken I was.
I miss this particular group immensely because the group is now in pieces.  We were no where as close as what we were in the past. We may talk. Or some of us don't even talk. But it's not the same. What used to be close companionship was replaced by misunderstanding. And then, that was replaced by us simply moving on with our lives.
And it makes me sad.
I regret not appreciating those moments more. I regret taking them for granted. I regret ever hurting them.
I mean, I understand and accept that this is the situation.
But that doesn't mean I don't miss them. Because I do. And sometimes, I wish, so much, that we could return to those moments.
However, as much as the group is in pieces, it doesn't mean that it will be in pieces forever.
It can be fixed. And I know that even if things get fixed, it does…

The latest Apple Iphone.

Watching the latest Iphone advertisement and I realized that as much as I love Apple and their Iphones, I would not buy the latest Iphone.


It's just a phone. And it's definitely overpriced.

If it was cheaper, then, I wouldn't mind getting an Iphone.

But from where I come from, Apple Iphones are expensive. Almost 2000 bucks. Yup. Not worth it. Eventhough it looks so beautiful and awesome.

So, I told myself, it's not worth it and to forget it.

And then, the IOS 7 came out.

And I thought it looked beautiful until I saw the video above.

It's a ripoff. IOS 7 is just a combination of Windows Phone 8 and Android.

So yea.

Obviously, I am not going to get an Iphone.

And this video above explains what I feel about Iphone right now.
Because it's true.


This is life

well, things have been hectic. The classes are longer and more challenging. And the exercises given feel like a mental Olympic challenge. Each day, after class feels mentally taxing.

So no. Things aren't easy. It's hard and hectic. And I do feel overwhelmed.

But at the same time, there is a little pleasure that comes with it. I have always loved being busy and productive. It makes me rather happy. So as hard and hectic as things are, I am also enjoying myself.

I thought A-levels was tough. And wow, degree is much harder. It is non-stop work.

Well, I am trying to balance everything out as I want to play and study at the same time. That's my goal. And it's not gonna be easy but I am going to try and do my best.

I miss my buddies in A-levels very much though. Here, I am not quite close to anyone. Instead, I am on good terms with everyone and I hang out with whoever happens to sit with that day. I am cool with everyone. But I miss the deep connection kind of friendship.

When the doubts comes.

Well, I just received my subject guides (it's something like textbooks but not exactly either. They are like guides for your studies).


Yes, can someone kill me now?

It's so stressful, looking at the stacks of stuff you are supposed to study.

Every day feels so stressful because you don't know a lot of stuff but you have limited time to study, to read, to understand, to exercises and to do revision.

There is only 24 hours a day.

And I still have a social life.

It's not easy.

So yea, I am stressed.

And the doubt comes because you ask yourself, can I really do this?
What if I screw this up?

But time and time again, I ask this question and it's this question that can cripple me.

And I realize again, that there is nothing I can do but do my best.

That is all I can do.

So I have to do my best and just hope for the best.

Oh well.

C'est la vie.