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A silent wish.

I won't lie. There are days where I miss them immensely. 

Who do I miss?

A group of high school friends that accepted me for who I am, no matter how broken I was.

I miss this particular group immensely because the group is now in pieces. 
We were no where as close as what we were in the past.
We may talk. Or some of us don't even talk.
But it's not the same.
What used to be close companionship was replaced by misunderstanding. And then, that was replaced by us simply moving on with our lives.

And it makes me sad.

I regret not appreciating those moments more.
I regret taking them for granted.
I regret ever hurting them.

I mean, I understand and accept that this is the situation.

But that doesn't mean I don't miss them. Because I do.
And sometimes, I wish, so much, that we could return to those moments.

However, as much as the group is in pieces,
it doesn't mean that it will be in pieces forever.

It can be fixed.
And I know that even if things get fixed, it doesn't mean that it will go back to the way it was.

But I guess, this group has done so much for me. And I just wish that we can continue it.

And no matter what happens, I can safely say that this group will always have a place in my heart.

Losing this group has taught me to treasure other groups and friendships. So, I do treasure all my other friendships and groups too.

But I guess, losing this group has also made me miss them alot.

And I just finished this anime, Free!

This anime connected with me emotionally and for some reason, it made me miss this group of friends even more.

And this anime had a happy ending where at the end, their conflict was resolved and everyone got back together.

It gave me hope.

That maybe, even my group could have such a happy ending.

After all, someone once said, "It's never too late."

So yea.

There is still hope.


Happy "Sam" said…
Yeah !!
You are correct !!

"It's never too late."
We must got dream,wish and hope !!

Let plan it and work on it ~

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