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The exams is coming now and so, I panic a lot.

But recently, my lecturers have been saying to us, it's alright.
You can do this.
You already have the knowledge. 
Just show the examiners what you know.

I find it brilliant how the lecturers can say that to us so calmly and with belief.
How do they know that we can do this?
What if we haven't put in enough effort?
What if we been really lazy or stupid?
Just how do you know that we can do it.

I said none of this out loud to my lecturers.
But one lecturer, for some reason, it was as if he could hear all our doubts and insecurities.
He smiled at us sincerely as he said, "You can all really do this."
He heard us snicker and sneered in disbelief.
And he answered, "You don't trust in yourself enough. You don't believe in yourself enough."

We were silenced.
He told us how we can do this.
How doing our best is what matters.
How hoping isn't what we should be doing.
How we should all know that we will pass.

He told us that since we started this game, we should end it.
Fight our devils to the end.
By devils, he meant our fears and insecurity.

That really shook me and I begun to agree with him.

It also makes me sad that today was one of that lecturer's last class.
I will certainly miss their classes.

Well, my lecturers are right.
Let's do this because we can do this.

Right now, I am just trying to imagine my subjects as Pokemons or weapons that I can summon. Hopefully, I am a good enough Pokemon master or weapon wielder that I can summon them well enough and use them to the maximum capability.


Happy "Sam" said…
Just one word for you !!
You can do it !!

If you got alert what lecturers teach at class.
Don't worry.

You can do it !!

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