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A little motivation to pick myself up


I been a little lazy and demotivated recently when it comes to my studies. And it doesn't help that I was a little upset because I got rejected from a firm that I wanted to intern in.

So overall, I wasn't feeling great.

I decided to get my nails painted. 

And honestly, that's a huge booster to me. 

I have only painted my nails black before but this time, I decided to paint it in a different color but it's still a dark color.

It's interesting that people are surprised by the fact that I like to get my nails painted in dark colors. 
Personally, I don't understand that.

I had a friend who said that painting nails black makes it looks like a monster. I found what she said interesting.
Why?
Because the reason why I paint my nails black or dark colors is because it makes me feel powerful. 

Yes, it looks like a monster. But I feel like a powerful monster that will bite your head off if you cross me.
I feel confident.
I feel like the boss.
I feel awesome.
I feel great and powerful.

And how I feel makes me more motivated to do the things I need to do like studying.

Only sad thing is, I sort of ruined my nails the moment it got painted, so I am not sure how long the color will last. I just hope it'll last a while before looking like total shit.


Comments

Happy "Sam" said…
hehe !!
Good !!
Important get your confident !!
Awesome !!
Great and powerful !!

Not hurt any one !!
What you do also can !!
hehe !!

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