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Past and Present

A friend sent me this song to listen to and I did.
And for some odd reason, I connected with this song at certain parts.

I understand that this is real life and sometimes, this overwhelms me.
I understand what it feels like to feel like you are gonna break. To be staring in the abyss and to feel like you are cracking.

I know what it is like to be in a really dark place.
I remember what storms feel like and it was just so easy to give up.
But I didn't.
And thank god.

I do know what it was like to feel like I was nothing but now, I feel like, my life is dream.

In a way, I am so grateful for everything. For everything that has ever happened. The good and the bad.

I am not saying that my life is perfect. It isn't.
But I am so far away from where I used to be.
And my life is only gonna get better.

I also know that dreams are hard work. I know that you will have to struggle for your dreams sometimes.
And sometimes, you don't even get it in the end.
But that never means it's over.
Because nothing is really over. Not until you are pushing up daisies.

And I know that there will be people who might laugh at my dreams or won't understand them. But that doesn't matter.
What matters is I do my best.

So the sad thing is actually, some people don't even try to achieve their dreams. They should atleast try. 
Because you only live life once. 
And like the song said, this is real life, everything you do is legendary. 

Point is, I relate with this song at certain parts because I know what it is like to be so different from I use to be and to be grateful for being alive.
I also know what it is like to fight for my dreams and in a way, I do feel like I have reached some of my dreams. 


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