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Addicted.



My phone had problems the other day. The battery expanded and it needed to be changed.

Most of my phone problems were caused by the fact that the battery expanded. Another problem is the power button. I have already fixed the battery but the I plan to fix the power button later.

With my phone gone for repair, I realized only how I addicted I am to my phone and social media.

I was really agitated that I didn't have my phone. 
But I got even more mad when I realized that I was addicted.

I shouldn't be surprised though.

Back when I was in high school, I was addicted to the internet (maybe I still am)

I still remember that I needed to get atleast four hours of internet a day. If I didn't get internet for one day, I remembered how it felt so bad for me. I would be walking up and down, thinking of the internet and how I needed it.

Over the years, I have managed to control my internet intake so it's okay now.

But I realized now that I was really addicted to my phone and I didn't like that.

The phone is a useful tool which is good.

But to stare at it every hour, as if something would happen. As if my life would change. It's silly.
It's just a phone.
It's a tool.
And I need to reset the way I think about my phone.

I need to remind myself that it's a tool.
That it will help make my life more convenient.

But I should be present all the time. Be in the moment.
And I should not use my phone as a crutch the moment I feel bored. 
I need to be okay to be by myself and my thoughts.

So yea.

Comments

Happy "Sam" said…
Yes,
you are correct !!
A lot of things is around us !!
Past by we also forget to see it !!
The view of the screen when we see on the car !!
The people that around us !!

Phone just a tools !!
Connect and communication tools !!
Parents, family, friends are around !!
Enjoy !!

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