When my last paper for my degree final exam ended, my friend and I went back to our old college to collect our Alevels certificate. My friend and I never took it in the past.
To be honest, I was already having a pretty tough time dealing with the fact the moment my exams end, my student degree life has ended.
Because I know that I will miss this life.
I will miss my friends.
I will miss studying hard.
I will miss having a sense camaraderie with my friends.
I will miss aiming for the stars for my grades.
I will miss doing my best.
And it's over. It's sad.
Soon, real life will knock on my door. I would think about my career.
And going back to my old college where I did my Alevels on the day my degree ends hits me quite hard.
To know that this part of my life is over.
But at the same time, going back to my old college didn't feel too bad.
Staring at the building, only reminds how I used to come here every day.
Passing by the canteen, only reminds me how my friends and I used to eat here and laugh every day.
My old college was the same and yet different.
Same because the main buildings were still the same.
Different because they had renovated a little bit and the people were the different.
My old college used to be my second home. Studied there, ate there, laughed there and cried there.
But it's over now.
My friend and I both stared at our old college and we both understood that this was a chapter that had passed.
Of course, we miss our Alevels once in a while but we no longer missed it so much. In a way, we moved on.
The college is filled new kids. Different kids. All with their hopes and dreams. Staring at them reminds us of us in the past. It's like staring into your past self.
The college is like a memory.
Everything is the same and yet different.
And here we are.
And we accept that.
So much has happened in the past and we got here now.
So much good.
For my friend and I, Alevels was when we got real with life. A blank slate to start our lives fresh. To finally be what we want to be and to choose the kind of person we want to be.
Alevels was a great time in my life. When I started, I was scared but I had hopes and dreams. Insecure but I knew what I wanted. And for the first time in my life, I chased my dreams.
I broke limits in my head.
I dreamt harder.
I stopped letting fear hold me back.
And I held on to friends that will catch me when I fall.
Alevels made me the person I am today and I found the family that I needed.
It was a good time but it ended.
Just like how my degree life ends too.
It's crazy how things end and a new chapter begins.
I think it's hard because this chapter has been great. And it's always hard to leave a great chapter into a chapter that is unknown yet.
But cheers to life.
Because I decided long ago that I will make the best of every chapter. Make every chapter as good as I can.
So here to me and my life.