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Fear


Lately, my fear has been loud again.

I'm still on my job hunt.

and my fear just keeps yelling at me

what if you don't find a job
what if no one wants you

And it's scary.

I don't come from a family where money is ever flowing

The thought that I would be incomeless is scary to me suddenly.

Because it means, whatever it is I planned for my financial goals come to a stop now.

I'm not sure if the job industry is hard or if I'm looking at the wrong jobs.

But yes, I'm scared.

I told myself to stop whining and fearing.
I told myself to not speak negatively.

And although I say nothing to people.
This is still my general feeling.

I'm beginning to feel tired and scared.

But then again, I remember one thing about myself.
I have alot of fears.
I have always been a fearful child.

And although I'm absolutely afraid right now, I keep telling myself that I won't settle.
No.
I won't.

I will still do my best.

After all, I don't need a million jobs. Just one.

Question is, I need to find that one.

So yea.

All the best to me.

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Hi Carmen,

I just want you to know that you have to eliminate fear to let the good vibes in. I won't say I am a strong believer in the law of attraction but somehow it does work (happened a few times for me).

Sometimes eliminating the negative vibes does not only mean your feelings but also the physical things around you. Maybe you've got a negative friend or maybe your room is messy, don't talk so much with that person or clean up your room.

What I'm saying that make your surrounding as positive as you can so that you will be able to attract the good vibes. And of course, think of the getting the job and work towards it. Sending in resumes is the first step and that's good. Maybe you could drop them an email after a week and ask if they've received your application? You gotta be proactive for the law of attraction to actually work hahaha it doesn't function like a magnet where it attracts without effort.

I hope I'm not sounding like a grandma but yea I really want to see you have the best and I am so happy you found someone who is not only your boyfriend but a best friend as well. He seems to emanate positivity so go get some + vibes by listening more to him, managing your anger, and so on.

I sincerely wish the best for you Carmen. And will keep updated about you on Twitter and your blog!

xoxo
Rebecca Maykoon Lee
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Sorry for deleting my comment twice hahaha

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