Lately, my fear has been loud again.
I'm still on my job hunt.
and my fear just keeps yelling at me
what if you don't find a job
what if no one wants you
And it's scary.
I don't come from a family where money is ever flowing
The thought that I would be incomeless is scary to me suddenly.
Because it means, whatever it is I planned for my financial goals come to a stop now.
I'm not sure if the job industry is hard or if I'm looking at the wrong jobs.
But yes, I'm scared.
I told myself to stop whining and fearing.
I told myself to not speak negatively.
And although I say nothing to people.
This is still my general feeling.
I'm beginning to feel tired and scared.
But then again, I remember one thing about myself.
I have alot of fears.
I have always been a fearful child.
And although I'm absolutely afraid right now, I keep telling myself that I won't settle.
I will still do my best.
After all, I don't need a million jobs. Just one.
Question is, I need to find that one.
All the best to me.